Hello there! I am Xushi, if you are reading this, then you probably know me already, but nevertheless i shall make an introduction. Feel free to skip this if you like or if you know me already.

So, who am I? Call me Xushi (pronounced like 'sushi') or Sushi or whatever you like, just like for my pronouns being he/him but you can refer to me however you like, I honestly don't really care about such stuff.

Let's talk about who I am and what I do then, I am a student as of the time of this post, a high-school student to be specific who is currently studying Computer Science (my last year!!).

I honestly have a love and hate relationship with CS, while on one side I like it, on the other side I have a feeling it isn't really my preferred career. On one side I have coding (you can check up my github or codeberg) and system design, which are one of the things I love to do, on the other I have to remember so many terminologies.

Some of the terminologies are easy to remember, but others are much more difficult to remember, besides I feel like some of the things they teach at school aren't really like that in real life.

For example PHP:

It is one of the things they taught us at school, but they never taught us how to use tools like Composer or the extensions other than the MySQL (they never truly taught even the concept of a Stack to be fair, even though we are using the LAMP stack).

And using it on Windows 11 nevertheless with MAMP and XAMPP, so it is more like WAMP Stack than LAMP.

Enough about school though, it isn't exactly boring, but I feel like slandering it too much isn't a good thing as I won't give it enough credit, maybe in future I will make a post talking about it more.

Let's talk about what I like outside of school! For one, it is art. I like drawing, and if you know me already you probably know the drawings I have made; I don't consider myself a good artist, even though the people I know in real life thinks my art is fairly good.

Truth is, that I continuously see imperfections in my own arts, a little less in the hand drawn arts (maybe the reason I think I'm better at it!) and a little more in digital art. For example this drawing which I traced from another artist:

I can honestly find so many imperfections in the art that I feel quite embarrassed, like in the sword and the size of her eyes, and this is only one of the better drawings I have made because it is traced from a previous art!

If we check drawings I have made purely by myself like my profile picture:

You can see that it is a lot less detailed and I could've added so much more! I honestly know that I need to practice more so that I can reach one day the level where I can produce art of the same quality as the other artists I have seen online which I absolutely love, but time is another problem.

On another topic, another thing I like is writing. Like writing in general (on a keyboard), not anything specific, just... Writing (and reading)! Writing on paper for me unfortunately isn't really a good thing, since it hurts my hand, fingers and wrists, maybe because of my posture or how I hold my pen, but damn if it hurts.

Despite that, I like writing, mostly stories, since I just have so many ideas in my head, but the issue is beginning and knowing how they develop. The ideas in my head are fleeting, they pop up when I read an article, alike a daydream, but it looks like I can never get a good grasp of them.

I have an account on Webnovel and I have read quite a number of Webnovels and stories, and each time I still get ideas of new books and fanfics from them. But if you ask me to write them down... Well, I simply get stuck, my fingers refusing to turn the image I have in my head into reality, something concrete.

I truly hope that one day I will reach the spark of 'divine(?)' inspiration that allows me to truly and freely write a webnovel or a truly inspiring story that isn't considered one of those pornographic slops which keeps showing up on the website.

In the end, I think that's all I have to say about myself, and I feel like I will make more blog posts about my passions and what I like as time goes by, since just like with my stories, even the ideas for this blog post are running away.

Feel free and stay well!